always a worrier

in talking to someone recently about a problem not too uncommon, i realized emotions i have time to time are not too uncommon.

when a person is wanting for something... like a material thing, or otherwise, even... and there seems to be no relief coming soon, whatever you do, you feel uneasy. you feel anxious. i seem to feel anxious or down even if i don't always realize that it's because of a specific thing that i want or i'm waiting for.

being young and sometimes irresponsible (right, sometimes), i will occasionally bounce a check and, having no savings, won't have anything to cover the overdraft until i get paid. for the time, i am just irritable, and i forget why. of course i never forget that i am waiting for money. my stomach suffers most, i think, holding it tight and tensing up all the time.

then there's books for the classroom, i'd always like more books in there, but i can't spend all my money on that.

now, someone who doesn't get paid as much as me, and who's then left wanting more often and for more things than i do, their gonna be irritable and uneasy anxious even more than me, unless they're better at handling it than i am.