Tuesday, May 31, 2005

i'm so dizzy

the allergy index must be really bad right now... cuz for the last bunch of days, i've been stuffed up with watery eyes and itchy throat... even if i do take my medicine & stuff!

yesterday my parents, grandparents, sister & nephew & i went out on the chain o' lakes in my parents pontoon boat... it was fun. the weather was awesome and lotsa people were out partyin... we didn't get back in till 9:00 pm, and i didn't hit the road for p-town till almost 10:00... it made for a rough day today, but i couldn't think about that while i was out on the boat. bein' out there just makes you forget about so many things - mainly things that are grounded in reality. anyway, gotta go find my carpool buddy... it's kinda late and she still hasn't come out of her class!

Saturday, May 28, 2005

dichotomies

i will say one thing for certain... i never deal in absolutes.

just kidding... i find it uncomfortable to be absolute in anything, but i thought i'd throw out that contradiction.

only sith deal in absolutes

realistic fiction

listened to her detail the finer points of each of the presidents, i began to wish that there had only been one president in office the last 52 years... she didn't delve into details about the main events happening during each presidency, just the leadership qualities, or lack of leadership qualities, each president possessed.

... then this one came to office, and he was good because he was from the midwest and he understood what the country needed...

...then this one came in, he went to college nearby and then moved to california, he was terrific...

...they never should have elected this one...

that i didn't agree with a word she said was not the reason i wished for her silence, it was more that i was tired and ready to leave the dinner and get on with my own plans. disagreements can be enlivening, provided that each person is given opportunity to voice an opinion, but this one was not worth the loss of time it would have cost me to argue.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

11:00 rock

the peoria street corner rocker is still rocking...

today between 4 & 5, i spotted the street corner rocker doin' his thing on the southwest corner of main & university.

if you've seen him, you know this guy carries a radio or a walkman & wears impossibly large headphones and animatedly rocks on several street corners in peoria. he sings louder and dances more violently if you acknowledge him... i've never said anything to him (see my opinion of shouting out the car window at people in previous post on feb. 12), but i've witnessed other people shouting or singing to him, and he seems to like the attention. he's kind of short and bald, and appears to be in his 50s.

well, driving home from barnes & noble tonight after doing homework for a couple hours, i spotted the street corner rocker, not singing or dancing, but standing at the entrance onto university from i-74. that's not the very brightest environment at 11:00 pm... i hope he's alright, but i didn't want to stop... is that wrong? i think his chief transportation is the peoria bus, and i don't know if it's running this late... but i also know cops pass that area frequently, so i hope they'll get him home (wherever home is)...

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

just wait

i've been wondering when some new song or cd would inspire me again; i was beginning to think i was losing my interest in music.

not so. not so.

oddly enough, i'm way into a cd called four by blues traveler, and mainly the song "just wait" has me totally crazy...

"is your suffering a privilege you share only?
or did you think that everybody else was completely at home?"

awesome.

i really like a lot of other music, but sometimes you get tired of the same stuff. and while i ride my bike, i listen mostly to stories. now that i'm done with harry potter for the 3rd time, i've been listening to david copperfield.

the weird thing about listening to david copperfield right now is that i'm reading the book "the cider house rules".... and in that book the author, john irving, keeps quoting david copperfield and referring to dickens' other books. irving actually uses characters' names from david copperfield as the characters in 'cider house rules' name orphans after characters in david copperfield...

let's ramble...

i started a new class last night... it's gonna be a long haul that lasts the next four weeks. it seems like a little bit of work, but it'll probably not be that bad.

gotta go to bed... very glad to have found some music to like again...

Sunday, May 22, 2005

mamas don't let your babies grow up to be bricklayers

in the latest personal response, a girl said her job of choice would be a bricklayer...

I would be a bricklayer if my mom let's me.

of course, she didn't answer why she would be a bricklayer... and there is that apostrophe in lets...

but the apostrophe tells me she's thinking of that piece of punctuation, and for first grade, it's pretty impressive that she has that in mind...

and here a boy wants to be a polise... as an answer to which job would you like to help with in building a house....

I will be a polise becues we wont git puld ofer

i can understand his concern with this, he's always getting in trouble in class and i can see his mom being worried about puld over, she just gives me that feeling...

and here the same boy says

My bookbag is A /house/ for junk.

my comment for this one is "so true!" it's true of all my kids... i never see such a buncha packrats!

personal responses

for each story that we read in first grade in the second 90 days of school, the students hafta answer 7 comprehension questions, a personal response (short answer), 4-5 vocabulary questions, 6-8 phonics questions, and every week they take 2 spelling tests, one multiple choice and one written, over 6 words.

i am grading my final set of tests, and actually i'm a bit behind in grading, so i'm grading this week's tests and last week's tests. last week we read two stories, which means double all the questions mentioned above, and this week we only read one story, so just one set of test questions per kid.

the personal response is worth 4 points, and really doesn't mean much cuz it doesn't count for their grade, but we have to grade it and chart it for the class and submit it to the administration for them to review. the question usually asks something like "what do you think about this & why?" so that the kids hafta answer two parts to get full credit.


here's how i kind of grade the answers:

if they write anything related to the question, they get a point.
if they write a good answer to one question and skip the second question, and they have good capitalization & punctuation, they get 2-3 points out of four
if they write a good answer to both questions but don't have capitalization & punctuation, they get 3/4
if the write two good answers and have good caps & punctuation, they get 4/4..


if they write something funny, they get a smiley face..... like when one of my girls answered this question:

which job would you like to help with in building a house? why would you choose this job?

i would be a elxtresiun cuse you get to mes with wiers and stuff

now, she spelled some words creatively, and she forgot to capitalize & add a period, but she got 3/4 for good answers. and she got a smiley face, cuse she made me laff.

Saturday, May 21, 2005

boy i tell you what

okay yesterday i started a class at isu. the class is a week long one from july 11-15th, and we had to go yesterday to find out about it and get started on our assignments. most of the work has to be done by july 8th (three days before the class starts).

one of the assignments is to read at least 50 informational texts and create a database of the books using keywords & describe the content/finer points of the books. tonight i read four to start with... and it shouldn't be too tough. we're supposed to do a lot more than 50 if we teach k-2nd grades, cuz we probably use picture books & not chapter books. so i guess i should try to get closer to 100, i don't know.

it was sorta like that conversation between jennifer aniston & mike judge in office space (not verbatim).
"joanne... i'm only counting 15 pieces of flare."
"well, you said 15 was the minimum."
"well, if you want to do the minimum... okay, but some people like to do more, and we encourage that."
"so i should wear more than 15 pieces of flare?"
rolling his eyes... "you do wanna express yourself, don't you?"
"yeah."
"great, great, that's all i ask"

Thursday, May 19, 2005

bats

last week was the last week my roommate was sharing my apartment, he moved out somewhere in the middle of it... it was bittersweet, mostly sweet, cuz having the whole apartment is better. i've already commandeered his room for my bike and all my bike accessories. not having someone around to avoid and stay away from and complain about is lonely and boring, though.

like for instance, i no longer have to turn up the tv while he is slamming cupboards and the fridge and the microwave... nothing was ever done quietly (and i desire nothing more after 6 hours with kids than quiet... sometimes i come home and the cats meow at me and out of habit i say 'shhhhh') it was so stressful when he would cook, especially when he would be on the phone at the same time; i can still see him sucking his fingers after checking the temperature up to the second joint on two of them, and the grimy food marks are still on the door where he would push it open retreating to eat his kill in front of his computer. i don't wanna imagine the condition of his computer keys & mouse buttons. once he offered to fix something on my computer ... i told him my computer wasn't hungry (no i didn't)

so last week, when the temperature in peoria was july-ish and humid, he was suffering heat exhaustion, apparently to the point where merely opening the windows was not enough. in our apartment, my apartment... my apartment... gotta get used to it... in my apartment, cross-ventilation is not hard to achieve. but cross ventilation was not enough. apparently, in (formerly) our apartment, we had to open the windows and the screens. the mesh screens, darn them, were blocking too much of the draft, and we were not receiving the full benefit of whatever draft was available.

i didn't do anything about the open screens, like everything else he did, i just left it alone... whatever, don't ask questions, i always say. no i don't.

well, i should have done something about the open screens i guess. maple tree helicopters covered the floor near every window and they were in the kitchen sink, the bathroom, everywhere... it was like living outside. then i went to the sink for some water to wake up with. flap flap... flap flap... i knew as soon as i heard it... i had killed one with a tennis racket in wisconsin, and it sounds like a plastic shopping bag, only this one made a thudding sound as it flapped.

there in the sink was a bat. wet. possibly injured. flapping. still horribly alive and rat-looking. i left it there for the roommate to find; he let it in, he should at least see it. i didn't figure it was going anywhere soon.

when i arrived back home, the roommate was gone to work, and the bat was still lounging, near death, near the garbage disposal (i was almost tempted...)

i decided to be humane, though, and used a fork & spoon to lift it out the window and drop it, to whatever fate it was left.

i always end up feeling sorry for them, but while they are alive and 'threatening,' i want them dead or gone or both.

the bat opened its wings, and appeared to have potential, but i'm not too hopeful. bats outside are good... inside they are scary. have you ever seen a skeleton of a bat?

more luck

i just checked my grade in miscue analysis at isu, and i got my 5th 'a' in my 5th class!!!!

i still have a 4.0 and, to tell you the truth, i'm a bit surprised... i mean, anyone who's read my last entry about not feeling the least bit stressed about the class and my final project knows i was feeling eerily secure in my performance, it was like it was too easy...

now, before i took this class, people who had taken it had told me that i would 'never look at reading the same again'... and it is so frickin' true... as i listen to readers now, i am listening for things, and hearing things and thinking things i'd never considered before... not to say i was ignorant before. but, with as much as i had known about linguistics and grammar, and as much as i liked to read before this class, i still hadn't brought together what ken & yetta goodman (the gurus of whole language & miscue analysis) brought together.

it's not healthy to compare yourself to others, or to hold yourself to other people's standards, but as i think about the simplicity of miscue analysis, the fundamental nature of it, i feel i am shaky in my ability to see things that are directly in front of me.

but hey, i got an 'a'... so i may not be a leader in the field, but i'm a darn-good follower, as followers go. and i'm pretty sure i've hitched my wagon to the right horse.

luck

twice i've had tremendously serendipitous incidents this week:

first, i was going to one world for some eating & drinking & working, and the moment i walked out of my house, i realized i'd left my keys... i decided not to waste the next bunch of minutes thinking about how to get into the house, when i knew there were only two ways: i could break in the basement window, which could possibly hurt the hinge on the window but would be fixable and preferable to sleeping outside... or i might be able to catch my downstairs neighbor later and she'd let me in the house.

either way, i'd do those things later, when i was done spending time at one world. procrastinate... plus, why break in now when julia would probably be home later? she wasn't home when this happened.

so i went to one world, and was doing my thing, when in walks angie (my usually annoying, but soon-to-be-quite useful friend)... we talked for a while when i remembered that i was locked out, and now angie was here, and being a friend who is in charge of my cats when i am away, she had a key to my house! my 'problem' was solved... and angie's not annoying, i was just kidding.


now today, i was headed out of school early because i had a workshop for the new math series in district 150. all along, i'd been thinking that this workshop was at 'calvin coolidge' which is near my house. i knew the workshop was actually at the school named lincoln, but i was thinking lincoln was the school near my house. when i left school & was driving through traffic & construction, it hit me that the workshop was at lincoln and calvin coolidge is the school near my house...

just as in the problem with my keys, i had a few different ways to solve the problem, but the most sure way i could solve the problem was to consult the peoria journal star, section R, which featured, today of all days, a full page map of peoria with bubbles pointing to each of the schools in peoria!!! crazy that i should have taken this article (for the purpose of mailing to my neighbors who are in rochester minnesota) on this day and needed a map of the city detailed for where the schools are. random! and then when i saw where lincoln was, i realized it is where i used to go for summer school meetings and other workshops & stuff...

i think i've talked about floating on the clouds and how my friend jacquie had told me i just float through life and find things so easy and stuff... these are just a couple more examples...

um... yeah, so how about those hailstones? if i'd been in the clouds during that, i'd have been dizzy, cold, and nauseous... not to mention, with each rolling updraft & subsequent pull of gravity, i'd have been coated with ice, getting thicker & thicker until i was heavy enough to fall to the ground and put a massive hailstone dent in the hood of someone's car.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

snuffy got out of the house last night. he usually cries when i go back in the house, but last night he was no where to be found. actually, that's an exaggeration, because i did find him. but he was in the neighbors' bushes, and wouldn't come out. when i tried to reach him, he growled at me like i've never heard him growl before! so i went in for the treats, and that did absolutely nothing. he'd get close enough to tease me, but never enough for me to catch him. i went to the door and went in and closed it, and sat there for a while, thinking maybe he'd get scared & lonely. when i opened the door he was looking at me between taking bites out of the lawn.

then i thought maybe real human food would get him, and that actually worked fast. but what happens now the next time i try to lure him with human food? first he would come to expensive kitty snacks, but then those weren't good enough for him. this time he came for tv dinner; next time i'm gonna have to cook something real.

in case you're wondering, right now it's windy like it's gonna rain, and snuffy's walkin around the house sniffin at the air...

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

lost weight

currently i am wearing a pair of jeans that i used to not fit into! i've lost inches on my waist!

i just got back from a 2.5 hour bikeride from home to morton and then to the library. this ride to morton is my favorite right now. i go downtown and cross the bob michel bridge and catch the bike trail to morton in east peoria. it's cool, cuz the ride out is uphill, and coming back, i barely pedal and keep up about 20 miles an hour. so i've been going out that way a lot. i also rode 28 miles from my parents' house to lake geneva on mother's day. that was pretty cool. biking. now i just hafta do situps and eat less so my stomach can look not so chubby.

lost pearl

the other day i was driving to school and i had the closest thing to a full chapter of a book i've ever had in my head. (i dream of writing a book someday)... it was awesome, and because of how good i thought that idea/theme was, i am very mad now because i can't remember one tiny detail (okay, actually i remember the feeling of it, if you know what i mean, but that's not gonna get me the words & ideas back)...

somebody help me! for some reason, the idea of a stick-shift car comes to mind whenever i try to remember...

Sunday, May 08, 2005

mother's day & fishing trip

i just returned from a family gathering for mother's day in lake geneva. it was quite nice. also this weekend, my dad, brother, and dad's employees, fished on lake michigan. that was also pretty cool, aside from me getting seasick and almost vomitting while down in the bathroom of the boat. the weather wasn't bad, but i guess because it was windy, the water was choppy, and we got tossed about a bit. the best thing to do was to stand up and look at the shore, but when you were working on something like pulling in a fish, or putting out a line, there was no seasickness at all, which makes me think it's all in your head. we all caught a kind of salmon that i only know how to say, not how to spell. and in class, when a kid asks me how to spell a word they want to write, i tell them to spell it how it sounds, so that's what i'm going to do now: coe hoe, but i'd guess it's spelled coho. i don't know.

Monday, May 02, 2005

laymen's terms

yeah, this was funny:

i tuned in to the school board meeting tonight to hear them
talking about switching banks, and the treasurer was just
saying that the interest rates would remain the same as
with the previous lenders, when a particularly dense person
piped up to ask:

" and what is that rate? could i, i've never been privy
to what our interest rate was..."

i knew she had heard this word, privy, and had been
dying to use it... it doesn't really apply here, i mean, just
because no one told you what the interest rate was,
doesn't mean you weren't privy, it simply means you
didn't ask.


treasurer: oh, that's posted in the wall street journal,
it's whatever so & so decides, but it's a variable rate...

dense person: and in layman's terms (unsuccessfully
attempting a sweet smile) that means...?

nonplussed treasurer: well, currently it's 4.??%....

dense person: somehow satisfied by numbers
that probably meant nothing to her: okay...

So she managed to use two very impressive words,
privy and layman's terms, only to show again how
ignorant she is.

i've never had this feeling before, but lately i've been so out of it i guess i'm never surprised:

i have a paper due in Miscue Analysis, to be posted Friday. as far as i can tell, i am done with it. i the odd thing is i don't feel done.

i've always felt a sense of finality when i finish a paper. perhaps that's cuz this paper really isn't due friday, it's due next monday. but, she wants it posted on 'livetext', a ludicrous, incredibly condescending program for keeping track of college students' work & accrediting ISU...

so i don't have to present it till monday, may 9th.

anyway, another reason maybe it doesn't feel done is cuz it's not an "apa" paper, so i neither have a big works cited page to complete, nor the frequent parenthetical citations to show where i divined the information in the paper...

but perhaps the main reason this feels incomplete is cuz there's not much stress attached to it. we worked on it step by step, and there is no rush now at the end to complete a bunch of final portions to the assignment.

the pied whistler

oscar, my cat who likes me to follow her into the eating room (the back bedroom where her food is) to watch her eat, has shown me one of her weaknesses...

today, while cooking polish sausage for dinner, i was whistling "hot-blooded," one of those old 80s songs... it came to my mind when i was cooking the sausage because when it came out of the microwave the plate was really hot. anyway, i was whistling that song, when oscar came up to me and started rubbing up on my leg. either she likes that song, or she likes whistling. i am going to guess it's the whistling, because she has done that a couple times now.

usually, she won't come rubbin' up on me in the kitchen at all. the only time she comes near is if i'm lounging and she comes and lays belly up on the floor, an invitation to scratch her tummy (although, half the time when i scratch her tummy, she howls and runs away... she's temperamental).

this is like the third time that i've been randomly whistling and she comes beggin for love. my first cat, ms. piggy, would bite my lips when i whistled and get freaked out at how effectively she stopped my whistling. then i'd start again, and she'd bite me again.

it appears that oscar is attracted by the whistling, and i haven't detected any reaction from snuffy on the subject. snuffy just pays extra attention, but attempts to play cool, while i pet oscar.