time item me it mite time

I like the weather these days, in Illinois. I shoulda rode my bike but I didn't wake up till 10:00 or so, and I had to start getting ready for work tomorrow!

I have always done something weird with regard to time. Most of the time, I forget about it completely. Because I am fidgety, I can't wear a watch. Because I am lazy sometimes, I don't check the clock. So I just don't think about time a lot.

It started with Christmas a long time ago. I'm 27 now, and when I first started doing this, I was probably about 9 or 10. I would convince myself that going to bed on Christmas Eve was a good idea, because sleep seemed to make things happen faster. Excited in wait for whatever gifts I wanted, I tried to bring sleep with this philosphy. Time is funny with regard to sleep.

When I was 11 or 12, I would think about the fact that it was Christmastime and that I had waited a long time for Christmas to come. I would think, in the days before Christmas break, I kind of don't want Christmas break to start, because once it does, it'll speed through and I'll be back in school waiting for spring break. Ultimately, because I can't stop time, break would come and go and I'd wait for spring break and always be pushing time.

Around the same time, I started something I haven't stopped doing yet. When something good comes, like the weekend or Christmas break, (I still celebrate the coming of Christmas Break, cuz I get 2 weeks off!) I think... "hmmm, I am standing here about to leave my classroom with 2 weeks ahead of me, and at the end of that 2 weeks, I'll be back here with the break behind me." I set up a sort of time capsule in my memory where I project my thoughts to the future "me"... I think this concept is not as impressive to communicate as it is to behold just within your head.

But time is funny, you have to give me that. I think that you could prick, with a needlepoint, a concept as big as the universe itself, or a thought process within someone's mind. A wrinkle in someone's brain could carry their entire childhood. Or it could carry a novel... and every night when you dream, you could live the whole novel or childhood within seconds because of the tiny wrinkle being in your brain - you can access the whole thing at once - because you know what's there.